I have a bit of a hangover today, but it’s not what you think.
Granted I DID have two glasses of wine last night, but it’s not the wine that has left me feeling jittery this morning.
It’s a socialising-hangover.
I had a lovely morning yesterday in one neighbour’s yard, kids splashing, good conversation, very relaxing and it was lovely to feel a part of things. Then, in the evening, I went to my Weight Watchers meeting (down 2.2lbs, woo-hoo!). THEN, straight after that, I was ‘scrapbooking’ at another neighbour’s house with some of the folks I’d seen that morning and a few extras. Again, it was nice and we were there for a good cause (to make a scrapbook for the daughter of our neighbour who died), and I had a nice time.
But this morning I just felt all out of sorts. I was disgruntled and uncomfortable and unsure why.
When I looked at my calendar and realised that nothing I have to do today involves talking to anyone (except my children), my mind heaved a tiny sigh of relief. It almost got past me but I caught it and examined it, and then let it go.
It’s not that I’m anti-social. It’s just that that was more than enough.
One of the reasons I left my job was because latterly I sat, essentially, in a corridor and everyone walking by said ‘hi’ or stopped for a chat. A lot of it was fun, but there was no way to turn it off. There was nohere to hide. There was no peace and quiet. I spent all day feeling jittery and anxious and overexposed. Also the work had changed and I hated it and the management had changed and I hated them (not really. OK partly true. I liked one of them. But I did cackle a bit when the rest of them got fired a couple of months after I left…), but a lot of my discomfort was due to my poor little inner introvert who was being rubbed raw, with no respite.
So today, for now at least, I’m holed up in the house, unwinding. I might venture out later, but I think today will be a day of nodding politely and passing pleasantries. If I have anything to do with it.
I’m glad I got to have a good old natter yesterday.
Just don’t make me do it again for a day or two. 😉